it’s my birthday & i’ll cry if i want too.

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i am stressed.
stressed about moving.
we have kinda found a house…
but it needs a tun of work.
i don’t know if the rental company we are dealing with is really even talking with the owner.
i wish we could wake up tomorrow and there would be a house to rent.
a perfect home, that even though it’s not ours…we could make it ours.
i went to bootcamp last night…
first time in since i was pregnant with carter & didn’t know i was.
i pumped myself up with a protein shake & some loud carrie underwood while i drove towards my death…
i was scared.
but..
i got through it without vomiting…
i left feeling really good.
i felt refreshed & it felt so good to do something that was so good for me!
Bootcamp is all for me.
though i am sore today…
i am looking forward to getting my butt kicked again wednesday.
this is a promise to myself…
i will be tiny again some day.
only tummy scares will be left from my children…
the unhealthy fat & out of shape Dana will be gone.
it’s my birthday…i feel 30
today i am 26.
my dad said to me
“you have more than most 26 year olds, people your age are usually still partying!”
i told him i could never imagine that.
i would be very unhappy with my life.
at 26 i am a mother of three & most of the time love my life.
no birthday celebrations today…
today we are off to mason’s first “play therapy” at children’s hospital.
dr. blank, here we come.
so happy birthday to me.

birthday.

Mason is 2.
Mason is 2.
His birthday was yesterday.
When I ask Mason how old he is, he says “free” and holds up one finger!
Cute.
It is hard to believe.
The past two years are a blur, trying to make sense of what has happened is crazy.
I am done looking to the past.
Mason’s has made it to his 2nd Birthday & he is doing better than he ever.
It’s pretty cute hearing him call me “Dana” just to be cheeky!
Or “Nakey butt” when he has managed to get his diaper off!
He is growing up.
We did something that I think is so cool.
As a Family we Bowled for Variety’s kids, on Mason’s 2nd Birthday.
Variety is the Children’s Charity who has helped us these past 2 years.
We raised $550 for Mason’s Birthday!
So cool.
Mason & Daddy bowling together.
Mason bowling on his own.
Taking a break!
My son is a fighter.
I have no idea what else Mason & our family will have to fight in our future?
But we are ready for it.
We will fight and we will win.
There are lots of ups & downs…
Physically & Emotionally.
But we have got through the first 2 years.
It is onward & upward from here.
Happy Birthday to my Son.
He is no longer a baby…
I love you, Mason.